So simple, yet not

I hope you all are well on this fine day.
My sabbath time was wonderful. It reminds me strongly of the comrades of spending time with friends in college.
We have dubbed Sunday night, burgers and beer night. After eating healthy all week, it was fun not to. There's just something about laughing and joking over an appetizer and a beer that is just freeing.
If you've known me for five minutes you know my love for, interest in, and curiosity about people. I want to know them, not just who they pretend to be. So observing silence for those on silent retreat is hard for me. Silence during meals is something I'm finding great comfort in. Can't explain it, it's almost a restful, relaxing experience.

This link is important, and explains the next part.
http://www.ssje.org/5.pdf/cowleypdf/SSJE%20Rule%20of%20Life.pdf
Our 'homework' for our meeting this afternoon was to read chapters 21-25 of the rule. I had difficulty at first, but as with many things, it's better to chew smaller bites. Some of my recent FB posts have been either direct quotes or paraphrases from my reading.
This kind of feels like a 'duh' moment for me but perhaps not. I found myself early for noonday prayer Sunday. I'm figuring out that sitting on the floor in the corner is where I feel I can "hang out" with God. I use environmental noise to keep me focused and just chill. I don't have to do or be anything, I am just me. May sound a bit boring, but you'd be surprised. My thought for the day came when, perhaps the Spirit moved but I felt this overwhelming sense of how deeply I love God. I feel like these words feel empty, this feeling was so strong I want to weep all over again. I've never felt this way before, it's almost an expectancy, for what, I don't know, I just know it's there. Not like I have to do something, like something's happening.
I'm out of words for now. Have a good week, share with you soon!
Love Nancy


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