it's a new year

I pray that it be a blessed one for everyone and that God continues to give me nudges here and there as to what he wants me to do.
What I know as of right now.
I have no doubt that I am called by God. The question remains, what is that going to look like? I've come to realize that it's not a horrible thing if I can't answer that question right now.
The thing I do think I know is that while being out in the world and caring for the people at large is a good thing, it is not what I am called to. I really do feel like my caring for a group of people is what I am supposed to do. I think this means in a parish as a priest, but I'm not the only one making that decision.
Where do I stand now? As of this moment, I'm not standing, lol. Sorry, couldn't resist ;) But seriously, there are plans in the works for an internship position. They asked me to not go into great detail to more than just family because we're only in the proposal stage, but I will say it's a paid internship for about six months, the trick is finding me enough to do, to to justify my having this internship.
I'm looking forward to the new possibilities this new year brings. I'm getting more involved at St. Matthew's. Not sure of the date yet, but I am going to be reading the prayers one sunday morning. I'm excited. I had a chance to read before people during my bible study class and having never seen the text before I apparently did very well. Rob said he was impressed. I just figured I'd like to read it how I'd like someone to read it to me, with emotion, enthusiasum, and varrying levels of volume.
I finished the documentary that was on PBS, but I was kind of in a funky mood so I didn't really have the inclination nor the desire to comment at the time. And frankly, I'm not really sure what I got out of the experience. Watching their journeys was certainly interesting, seeing how though they felt called, the real world didn't go anywhere. I guess I never really thought it would, it was just an interesting view. I guess it made the reality of living the life of a clergy person more real.
The discussion they had in one of their seminary classes about self care and how their job is really more of a 24/7 job rather than a 9 to 5 like most people expect. Another thing I've been thinking about and some of this was brought on by my being home a lot over the last month and caring for my sister as well as just sort of being around to help with whatever. I admit, I began to feel very under-appreciated and servant-like. It was more of the fact that I was willing to do whatever but it turned into a situation of it was expected that I would do certain things and rather than asking me to do these things, I was being told to do them. I will admit, that is something that concerns me about the possibility of serving a congregation.
I'm not sure if I wrote about this before or not but if i did, oh well. I exchanged emails with a totally blind priest in florida. I asked him every question I could think of and it was great. He talked about going into hospitals and how despite the laws in place, they don't often allow dogs in patient's rooms.
It's interesting that I've also been bouncing this idea around in my head about the possibility of working in a hospital. I would think clergy, but maybe as a counselor. I don't know why that struck me, but it did. Who knows, maybe it's a God thang. That is something I'm going to find the time to chat with Rob or Charlie, or Rick, or maybe all of the above and see what they know/think. on this idea.
As far as I know, I'm having a Committee meeting on the 4th. I'm glad, it's been a Long time and we need to meet. I don't know what's going to come of this meeting, will we decide to meet again, or will they decide they're ready to make a decision. I'm also supposed to meet with my Spiritual Director in February, I think.
I'm so lucky when it comes to the people I've got supporting me. They're all amazing and I truly know they care.
I wish all the best for everyone in this exciting new year.
Love,
Nancy